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: Wow, so much in so little time...
So today is my first day back from what felt like a week-long weekend :O)
Finally, Harry will have Saturdays off and that just makes me super happy and I can feel my endorphins just multipling! Me, Harry, Blake and Krystina went to the Deleware River Gap in PA on saturday it was such a random trip but I loved it! Just seeing the scenic view of the lake and snow and Harry and everyone who came with us made it worth while :O)
Once we got back of course to NJ, we went to eat...me and Blake had a little argument: The working man and the pursuit of happiness (career-wise)...Blake said that we all have a choice to stay with the job that we hate or take a chance and get a new job that will make us happier... I said, yeah we all have "choices"- duh, that is a given lol, but people with real responsibilities just cannot get up and walk away in pursuit of their ideal job, especially when you have a family, when you do not speak english and the jobs available to you are limited to begin with because of lack of education or u do not speak english...Blake then gave an example of his father (an American born) and his grandfather, whom I had a chance to speak with in Polish a week ago...his grandfather told me how hard it was in the USA for a Polak coming in from the East to find a job...he said jobs were scarce and he had to move to NJ where he was a builder and he did not even have time to think about what he really wanted to do, he had to always think where his next job will come about so he could feed his family (he built houses)...his family was poor as hell, the girls only had one doll to play with... Putting that in perspective, what would of happened if Blake's grandfather just got up and went in search of his "calling", his ideal job? He would either fail or succeed, it is a risk and this is the choice...being that I analyze risk @ my job, there is always that "50:50:90 rule", chances are if you have a 50:50 chance to do something, there will be a 90% chance you will fail...I guess I am too analytical and I know things that Blake does not...I am happy that Blake's father is a "success", but I don't think they were ever poor enough where Blake's mother had to find a job cuz she never worked after she got married. Blake's father also can speak English, I think that makes 100% difference in your job-scope...my mother always worked, my father always worked etc... I come from a different structure. My family got discriminated against cuz my family A.) Escaped a Communistic country and B.) They were taken advantage of b/c they do not speak English... so the inital point I was trying to illustrate is that, yeah we all have a "choice" to stay or go, but with a certain group of people will always have a higher risk of failing at their "jumps" hence, they must stay where they are at or else their families will suffer and the guilt will be overwhelming...phew, does that makes sense? Blake, I hope u r reading this, lol...
Aside from that, Sunday I spent the day w/my nephew...he is an excercise machine, lol... On Monday I got my hair carmelized, highlght, low light and evening out the over all tone in my hair... JC Penny had 20% off for new customers, so I did it all for like $95 (when at Vito Mazza the same thing cost me $250 in 2005). Since I got my tax return, hey why not!? I also got my oil changed and I found out one of my hoses is seeping, so great, I need to get it fixed, but I have another 20% off @ Good Year...wow, I never knew how coupons were so useful... shopping around for a good deal is always my hobby. I also went to lunch and played pool with Harry. It was such a quick day though... but I am saddened to say that one of my friedns is failing her OT field work :O( It is always so sad when you are bending over backwards but it just isn't happening...I remember when my professors failed me for Endocrinology (which was supposed to be a freaken PSYCHOLOGY class but it turned into a hrd core biology class) and I falied Theory of Linear Transformations 350 Blah! I hated the professors and those courses but they were my core-curriculum classes so I was soooo stresssed OUT! I was breaking out, I couldn't sleep, and that is when I hated school the most. It happened my 3rd yr of school, with 2 consecutive semesters...but, you got to get it done and take it one day at a time, is what I learned... I was #4 in my high school class and now I was failing classes-that made me feel so empty and lost and what will I do?! I felt desperate and hopeless... But today I have a stable job, I enjoy not ahving to deal with people and eventually I want to get to the top :O)
Aside from that, today I am back @ work. The flowers that harry got me for Vday just disintegrated...everyone at my job was complaining about their flowers dying so they called 1800flowers and will get new flowers, I decided to do the same, cuz they are just so pretty! So todays traffic was aweful, I decided to take a "short cut" thru exit 50A only to find out I went the wrong way cuz the sun was on the wrong side of my face, lol. I also looked at the houses and I knew that I was not in a rich neighborhood, lol... I am so freaken smart! Eventually I got back on rt 124 and took the long way to get here. Once I arrived to work, aakesh said that this weekend was horrible for him cuz his gf's best friend's friend, committed suicide on Saturday...apparently that 16yr old girl's sister died on Xmas day in a car crash and b/c that other sister was the over-achiever and the 16yr old girl's parents were always comparing her lack of achievement to the sister who died on XMAS...feeling so overwhelmed, the girl locked herself in the room and did not want to come out...and she found out she was pregnant too...not knowing what to do, she shot herself. Wow...imagine hearing that story after a 2 hour traffic jam...it is amazing what familial pressure can do to a growing adolescent. This made me sad cuz last week, Norman's grandma died, this week this. I do not want to hear about death.
So today is my first day back from what felt like a week-long weekend :O)
Finally, Harry will have Saturdays off and that just makes me super happy and I can feel my endorphins just multipling! Me, Harry, Blake and Krystina went to the Deleware River Gap in PA on saturday it was such a random trip but I loved it! Just seeing the scenic view of the lake and snow and Harry and everyone who came with us made it worth while :O)
Once we got back of course to NJ, we went to eat...me and Blake had a little argument: The working man and the pursuit of happiness (career-wise)...Blake said that we all have a choice to stay with the job that we hate or take a chance and get a new job that will make us happier... I said, yeah we all have "choices"- duh, that is a given lol, but people with real responsibilities just cannot get up and walk away in pursuit of their ideal job, especially when you have a family, when you do not speak english and the jobs available to you are limited to begin with because of lack of education or u do not speak english...Blake then gave an example of his father (an American born) and his grandfather, whom I had a chance to speak with in Polish a week ago...his grandfather told me how hard it was in the USA for a Polak coming in from the East to find a job...he said jobs were scarce and he had to move to NJ where he was a builder and he did not even have time to think about what he really wanted to do, he had to always think where his next job will come about so he could feed his family (he built houses)...his family was poor as hell, the girls only had one doll to play with... Putting that in perspective, what would of happened if Blake's grandfather just got up and went in search of his "calling", his ideal job? He would either fail or succeed, it is a risk and this is the choice...being that I analyze risk @ my job, there is always that "50:50:90 rule", chances are if you have a 50:50 chance to do something, there will be a 90% chance you will fail...I guess I am too analytical and I know things that Blake does not...I am happy that Blake's father is a "success", but I don't think they were ever poor enough where Blake's mother had to find a job cuz she never worked after she got married. Blake's father also can speak English, I think that makes 100% difference in your job-scope...my mother always worked, my father always worked etc... I come from a different structure. My family got discriminated against cuz my family A.) Escaped a Communistic country and B.) They were taken advantage of b/c they do not speak English... so the inital point I was trying to illustrate is that, yeah we all have a "choice" to stay or go, but with a certain group of people will always have a higher risk of failing at their "jumps" hence, they must stay where they are at or else their families will suffer and the guilt will be overwhelming...phew, does that makes sense? Blake, I hope u r reading this, lol...
Aside from that, Sunday I spent the day w/my nephew...he is an excercise machine, lol... On Monday I got my hair carmelized, highlght, low light and evening out the over all tone in my hair... JC Penny had 20% off for new customers, so I did it all for like $95 (when at Vito Mazza the same thing cost me $250 in 2005). Since I got my tax return, hey why not!? I also got my oil changed and I found out one of my hoses is seeping, so great, I need to get it fixed, but I have another 20% off @ Good Year...wow, I never knew how coupons were so useful... shopping around for a good deal is always my hobby. I also went to lunch and played pool with Harry. It was such a quick day though... but I am saddened to say that one of my friedns is failing her OT field work :O( It is always so sad when you are bending over backwards but it just isn't happening...I remember when my professors failed me for Endocrinology (which was supposed to be a freaken PSYCHOLOGY class but it turned into a hrd core biology class) and I falied Theory of Linear Transformations 350 Blah! I hated the professors and those courses but they were my core-curriculum classes so I was soooo stresssed OUT! I was breaking out, I couldn't sleep, and that is when I hated school the most. It happened my 3rd yr of school, with 2 consecutive semesters...but, you got to get it done and take it one day at a time, is what I learned... I was #4 in my high school class and now I was failing classes-that made me feel so empty and lost and what will I do?! I felt desperate and hopeless... But today I have a stable job, I enjoy not ahving to deal with people and eventually I want to get to the top :O)
Aside from that, today I am back @ work. The flowers that harry got me for Vday just disintegrated...everyone at my job was complaining about their flowers dying so they called 1800flowers and will get new flowers, I decided to do the same, cuz they are just so pretty! So todays traffic was aweful, I decided to take a "short cut" thru exit 50A only to find out I went the wrong way cuz the sun was on the wrong side of my face, lol. I also looked at the houses and I knew that I was not in a rich neighborhood, lol... I am so freaken smart! Eventually I got back on rt 124 and took the long way to get here. Once I arrived to work, aakesh said that this weekend was horrible for him cuz his gf's best friend's friend, committed suicide on Saturday...apparently that 16yr old girl's sister died on Xmas day in a car crash and b/c that other sister was the over-achiever and the 16yr old girl's parents were always comparing her lack of achievement to the sister who died on XMAS...feeling so overwhelmed, the girl locked herself in the room and did not want to come out...and she found out she was pregnant too...not knowing what to do, she shot herself. Wow...imagine hearing that story after a 2 hour traffic jam...it is amazing what familial pressure can do to a growing adolescent. This made me sad cuz last week, Norman's grandma died, this week this. I do not want to hear about death.
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